Yeah, I know I never post here anymore, and probably the only person who is going to read this are russian spambots, but I am just... I don't even know.
( Possibly triggering for abuse, drugs, and past issues.  )

Well, I may have really stepped in it this time.

I haven't been updating lately, mostly cause I do twitter now, and because like I don't really think people read this anymore. I don't know. But yeah, things are so fucking bad for me right now. I have a civil liberties midterm due at 4 and I can't even get a word typed.

So much has happened in the last two months I don't know where to start. This is one of those things that totally floodgates. Two months ago, EJ was driving and a water bottle rolled out of the cupholder and ended up below the brake pedal and got jammed. She couldn't get it out and she ended up crashing into a tree. The car was totalled and it shattered my mother's ankle.

I was on a bus to New York at the time, and my sister called me crying hysterically, but there was nothing I could do. In the end my mom ended up in a nursing home. I had to make all the decisions, talk everyone into calm, get shit straightened out and what not. And I'd already been struggling with depression and this just made it worse. I just had a hard time getting things done.

Then last week (two weeks? ten days? The first day of Spring Break) my mom had been sick for like two days and nothing was helping her. Nausea and diarrhea, and the medications they gave her weren't helping. They took her to the hospital where they thought she had a blood clot.

It wasn't a blood clot. They did a CT scan and found masses in her liver, lesions in her lungs. It was so bad that on 8 o'clock on a Friday night an oncologist from the practice where my mom had been treated before came over to talk to my mom.

She was meant to have a biopsy on Friday, but they didn't stop her blood thinners in time. So instead I sat in the oncologists office with my mom listening to her explain how bad this was. And it's bad even though I've been trying to like... think it's not and reassure her it's not. They can't radiate the lungs, she's not a candidate to be treated medically (the Doctor doesn't know for sure, but she doesn't think so) and there are multiple lesions on both lungs.

So yeah, in the middle of this I've been trying to do the midterm for a class I love and I keep sitting and staring at the paper with my brain going "My mom is probaby dying of cancer, how the hell do I do this?" And I can't get anything done. I don't know what to do. I don't know if I can ask for an extension... I just don't know.

My note from the universe today said:

When "bad" things happen to "good" people, Kim, it's often because they want to become even better teachers, guides, and helpers to those precious souls who will one day need them to be their rock.

Plus, today's bad is always tomorrow's boon, no matter who you are, no matter what has happened, and no matter how weak the coffee was.


I'm tired of bad things happening to good people, even if my position as a good person is always up for debate. I'm tired of dealing with this shit. I can legitimately barely move today, and I'm having a hard time even holding up my laptop. My arms and chest and legs just... don't want to move. It's like I'm needing to force the muscles and nerves double and triple hard to work together to form a cohesive bond. It's like there's this huge disconnect between everything in my body, and it's taking longer and longer to send signals between them.

And it hurts. It hurts so fucking much. It hurts to talk, to yell, to sing, to lift up anything, to type, to walk, to eat, to sigh, to sleep. All I want to do is sleep, but it hurts even to do that. Typing hurts and worse it's hard. Normally I can type in my bloody sleep, but right now... right now it's painful to press my fingers into the keys and it takes so long. Normally I type between 80-100 words a minute. Right now I'm probably averaging forty or so.

I'm still stuttering. It's worse later at night when I'm tired. It's so funny how the pain and the stuttering are connected. When one is worse, the other is worse too. It sucks. And I have to fucking pack and move in the next week and I have no idea how to do it. I don't think I should go back to school. I'm going, there's no doubt about that, but I really don't know if I should. I'm just gonna have to keep trying.

Ugh, keep trying. I'm so sick of needing to do that. I want things to be easy and smooth sailing. I just want everything to work. The speech therapist wants me to go to Boston, but I need to see my PCP before we can do it. I see her on Friday, which was the first appointment she had even though I called her on last bloody Monday when things started to get bad.

Keep getting worse. I'm very worried. I'm not like suicidal or anything, but like... I'm not having a good feeling of time at the moment. I'm sure it sounds melodramatic, but given how things have progressed in the last week... I think you'd feel the same way.

My sister has finally lost it, or is the process of losing it. I don't know. Things are bad here. For the past few months, there's been signs that her reality is different then ours. She says we say things we don't say, or remembers things that didn't happen... normally it's small things but there've been instances where it has been larger things. She was convinced that the Doctor told her that she needed to think of Johnathan as a "piece of flesh." That he "never was a baby." I mentioned it to Cindy, and Cindy said no, that the doctor was wicked pro-choice and someone who believes that life begins at conception. So she totally misheard what he was saying. She's refused to go back, and I think she's off her meds, but I can't be sure. EJ's got like... a whole huge contingent of mental stuff, including being bipolar and shit.

On Saturday, it was my nephew's third birthday. EJ and my mom went down there, because yeah. I didn't go (I had a migraine, and there was 20 kids there.) Two of my cousins have had babies since my sister lost hers, and my mother hasn't seen either of them. EJ can't handle being around babies. She won't go places like the mall or the movies because she's worried babies will be there. She won't watch Dexter because of the baby. Any movies with babies are banished. She's just been avoiding everything with a baby.

My mother has always been close to my cousin Eddie, and she hasn't seen the baby. At the party, he came over and put the baby in her arms and EJ just fucking lost it. She said that she told my mother that she wanted to leave (she didn't) and then she went and sat in the car and called me. She kept going on and on about how Jonathan was four months old "today." (This was Saturday.) Finally, as gently as I could, I said "No EJ, Jonathan's dead. He would have been four months old if he had lived, but he didn't." And she hung up on me. After I called her fifteen times, she just answered the phone with "You're supposed to make me feel better not worse!" And then hung up on me again. I called my mom then, and before my mom could walk across the lawn, EJ made our brother leave his son's party and drive her home.

When my mom got home, it was world war fucking three. My mom got into it with EJ, and then my Dad joined the fray. My sister said that she had told my mom that she wanted to leave, and she didn't, and then she couldn't wait for my mom to walk across the lawn... and then came the doosey. EJ told my mother that she was a traitor for holding a baby, and that she didn't care about EJ or her feelings.

WTF? Yeah. Because everything that's happened in the last four months hasn't been about her. That my mom has completely shunned anything with babies, and worst of all... that my mother doesn't care. My mother didn't fucking sleep at night until I came home, so that she could be there if EJ needed her. She has nightmares about performing CPR on a baby that's been dead for a week, and is covered in blood. She has fucking nightmares about seeing EJ's insides falling out. But no, doesn't care.

Things got bad and EJ stormed upstairs and locked her door. And then my parents started fighting and my mom picked up a plate and threw it at my dad where it hit the wall and shattered. I think he threw one back. All I know is that there was a shit ton of glass and tears and bullshit and I had to clean it up.

Yesterday was better, and then EJ went with my mom to see my mom's elderly friend Mary. I was on my way to see Amanda Palmer. (Awesome show, but sadly, I can't move today. Too much on my poor knee.) Apparently, while they were there, EJ lost it again and told my mother that she had promised never to hold another baby. My mom proceeded to lose it then, because she never would have promised that. They woke me up fighting about it this morning.

The sad thing is that EJ really believes all this happened. She believes my mom promised this, she believes that the doctor said that, she believes all this shit. And I don't know what to do, I don't know what to do and it's killing me. I just want to run away or do something stupid. The tension in my house keeps getting worse and it's smothering me, cutting off my oxygen. I just really have no fucking clue what to do. My mom's health is so bad, EJ's sanity is so bad and it seems like they're fighting against each other... I just don't know.

The skinny, because I need to rant in more then the 144 characters twitter and facebook allow me.

My mom had a heart attack yesterday. She'd been having chest pains every day for the last two weeks and didn't tell anyone, not even the Doctor. The only reason she admitted it yesterday was because the doctor pushed her to admit it. She saw the cardiologist last week and just told her that the pains were coming "more often." This is me livid. Like so livid. Oi. I knew things were worse then she was saying, but I had no idea how much worse. She never wants to bother anyone and doesn't understand the simple prospect that preventive measures mean things like this don't have to happen. I love my mother to pieces, but I'm just so fucking angry right now.

She's going to have a shunt put in, but not today. Still hasn't seen a doctor but she's on the cardiac monitoring floor. They've done a shit ton of blood tests and stuff She'll be in a few days to be stabilized. Oi. I'm home with my sister because neither one of us do hospitals very well. Just... fuck my life. For serious. I'm so tired of being the grown up in my family.

• 08:35 Hmm. I'm actually. *Gulp* Glad about the losing 11 pages thing. I have an entirely different paper concept based on fear and democracy. #
• 08:48 @Schonste booze always helps, randomly. And blueberries. #
• 09:09 @VegasWalkinDude Clearly, you just need to go and kill some people at twitter. #
• 09:24 @Schonste Mmm. Cinco de Mayo. #
• 12:46 Mmm. Mint tea goes so well with a rainy day. #
• 13:45 Is feeling very Nightwishy today. #
• 15:06 @Schonste Mmm. Now I want a burger instead of wings. Damn, that looks good. #

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• 08:21 @amandapalmer but drinking and blogging so often equals truth. #
• 08:21 Really shouldn't have slept, because now I can't remember fuckall for my presentation. Had interesting dreams, though. #
• 08:43 Oh hey, Happy Star Wars Day. #
• 09:20 @ihadtimetokill Want me to bring you redbull to Lunch? #
• 10:56 Wow, the housekeeper went crazy with the bleach. I can smell it in my room. #
• 10:57 @Schonste Omfg that is the cutest thing ever. #
• 10:57 @VegasWalkinDude Does booze count as a drug there, then? #
• 14:44 Ugh. Presentation fail. #
• 14:50 I need a large drink. Or Vodka gummybears. #
• 15:22 These triple ginger snap cookies are great. Fresh, ground and crystallized ftw. #
• 15:24 @molliekatie you. Dinner? #
• 19:00 Damn, I was gonna be so productive tonight. #
• 19:20 @RobertLPhillips We have a girl in quarantine here. #
• 19:44 @Trinora Wow. What a fucking bitch, dude. #
• 20:28 Perhaps I shouldn't have had that beer... #
• 22:40 @VoltjanStevens Where do you blog, because I'm nosy. #

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• 08:26 yeah. A wasted day. Fuck. #
• 12:00 oh, but a nap sounds so good right about now. #
• 15:12 Crapspackle. #
• 15:34 @HappyRotter Oh crap. #
• 15:59 No. Bad open office. Bad! *cries* #
• 16:43 God. I hate everything forever. #
• 20:18 And the news that swine flu is possibly on the moho campus has killed the confesh. Come back, confesh! #
• 22:18 yeah, I appear to be dead now. Bed time and will finish presentation stuff in the morning and paperstuff tomorrow night. #
• 23:05 @SpookyDan Ooooh, so lucky! #

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• 07:51 @Chrysalid Ooooooh. Wants! #
• 08:36 RT @@postsecret Later today, when I post the SaturdaySecrets, if 1,000 of you ReTweet it, I will contribute $1,000.00 to 1(800)SUICIDE. #
• 10:55 Tired, grumpy and neurotic. This is gonna be a great day. #
• 15:44 RT@postsecret #SaturdaySecrets ad.vu/4i4f (ReTweet for 1(800)SUICIDE Fundraiser) #
• 21:23 should be doing her homework, but instead is drinking. Need free booze. #

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• 09:34 @Trinora stab her in the eye. #
• 09:35 @VegasWalkinDude What about law school students? Do they get it? Or do they half get it, cause some of them still have some soul? #
• 09:38 Ugh. Slept later then I intended and had bad dreams. #
• 09:39 @Trinora True facts. #
• 09:43 I am going to shoot this stupid girl in the face. Seriously. God, why are girls stupid? I do not understand this. #
• 09:44 You have allergies. That is not the swine flu. Sorry. #
• 10:18 @Schonste bats are so freaking adorable. #
• 10:46 And JoJo sends out an email about swine flu. Cue more panic. #
• 16:31 Oh, so fucking kill Darth Vader. #
• 21:14 Is a sad panda. #
• 22:22 you and I? We're fucking done professionally. #

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• 00:12 I am going to kill the girls outside. Possibly by dropping pins out my window to see if they puncture the air in their heads. #
• 06:41 Took a sleeping pill, woke up panicking, had bad dreams. Waiting until 9 to call the doctor. #
• 08:07 seeing the doctor in an hour and fifteen minutes. Please think good thoughts for me. #
• 10:43 @sexygeologist I made it to listen to the last 15 minutes or so. Yay! #
• 10:52 So, I'm okay, this time. Eventually I'll learn the difference between the old flashers and the new but until then... panic and DR every time #
• 10:58 @sexygeologist Are you coming to lunch in Kendade? #
• 15:58 Yes. Sometimes killing everyone is so the direct answer. Oi. I fucking hate the living. #
• 16:23 @Trinora Everything is better in New Hampshire. #
• 18:15 @Trinora Is there Vesmir tonight? #

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I'm trying very hard not to think this is because I had hope that the calcium in my left eye could be taken out and I would be fine. Also, I feel very alone right now.

• 08:28 I fucking loathe finals. And I loathe how this paper is making me feel about myself. #
• 09:01 @Chrysalid No, it's not a bad plan. They probably need people like you with a conscience and stuff. #
• 09:17 @Chrysalid Of course they do. After all, they need to look good with the naysayers and probably will attempt to convert you. "Join us." #
• 09:41 @sexygeologist YAY! #
• 10:41 I am highly fucking amused by the idea of RPing on Twitter. Especially something cool and relevant to my interests like 'The Stand.' Hmm... #
• 10:50 @jeffcthomefan Yeah, I got added by someone RPing Mother Abigail from the stand. I'm like... impressed and interested. #
• 10:58 God, I want to shoot someone in the face over this paper. I worry it's going to kill my V love. #
• 11:05 @PhelanLainW Yes plz. Especially with decafe. #
• 14:56 @Trinora ..... wtf? #
• 14:56 My professor whom I hate is offering free extensions. Do I take one? #
• 15:05 @PhelanLainW I so already am pushing it off as long as i can. #
• 15:34 @Trinora mmm pulled pork. How cheap is it to fly? #
• 17:54 ugh, girls in my film class are so fucking loud. Oi. STFU if you please. #
• 20:55 is doing some serious drinking, thinking, planning, praying and cleaning. If anyone @moho finds my eye of horus, save it please. #
• 21:24 ...this is gonna be the longest night of my life. #
• 21:30 Having flashers in my good eye. Can't do anything about it until tomorrow. Long fucking night. #
• 21:36 doihaveswineflu.org/ #
• 23:27 Someone dropped of my pendant. Thank gods. #
• 00:12 I am going to kill the girls outside. Possibly by dropping pins out my window to see if they puncture the air in their heads. #

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• 08:29 ugh why am I waking up every two hours again? #
• 09:29 @Schonste ...Me and my patch would fit right in. #
• 12:25 @Trinora OMFG, ME WHERE ALL BLACK? NO! #
• 13:36 I fucking hate, hate, hate smoke detectors. Stupid standing outside in the hot sun with the shrill noise. Head. Ache. #
• 15:29 I would like a thunderstorm now. #
• 15:56 @ihadtimetokill @molliekatie is there food? #
• 15:58 @ihadtimetokill I know. I was considering suggesting across the road or Blanch. God, this is twice this week when everything bites. #
• 16:04 @ihadtimetokill I have Senate at 7:30. #

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• 09:23 Oh man, you guys need to see Franklyn. #
• 10:37 Oh, man Franklyn. Seriously, you all need to find this movie and watch it. #
• 10:54 And all of this talk is making me wanna play pandemic 2 again. Damn, this is gonna be the worst thing during finals. #
• 14:32 @cinefille but Betty is fucking batshit, dude. #
• 15:08 Mwahahaha and the Miley Cyrus virus has destroyed the earth. #
• 15:36 @Trinora yeah. God, so addicted to this thing #
• 21:29 @ihadtimetokill I got every country. Mwahahaha. #
• 21:36 SHIT SHIT SHIT. I WAS ONE PERSON AWAY FROM WINNING WHEN FIREFOX CLOSED. DAMN IT. #

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• 09:11 ugh, when did 10 become sleeping late? I like this not. #
• 11:58 is writing her Doctor Who article, and then reading Aristotle. One of these things is not like the other. #
• 12:20 I lied, food then writing then reading. #
• 13:25 I am so thirsty today for no reason. #
• 14:55 @wtftastic There's that place in Florance. #
• 14:56 @wtftastic Or Sunderland, rather. It's supposed to be good. #
• 14:58 @wtftastic www.bubsbbq.com #
• 15:11 is listening to a DW audio book, and trying to write this. Fuck. #
• 15:27 @wtftastic Fuck you, Maddie now I want BBQ too. I know my family's grilling right now too. #
• 15:36 @wtftastic if I didn't have so much shit to do, and class tomorrow I so would go home for dinner. #
• 16:08 Vodka gummy bears out of this? www.vat19.com/webimages/covers/large/giant-gummy-bear.jpg #
• 17:32 Damn it. Fuck. Madagascar and fucking CANADA. Damn. But it was great to watch the countries die. #
• 17:33 @wtftastic www.crazymonkeygames.com/Pandemic-2.html #
• 17:38 @Trinora I love that you named yours Sunshine. I named mine Kim. #
• 17:42 @wtftastic It takes a while for them to die. #
• 17:43 @Trinora ILU. #
• 17:47 I WILL GET YOU MADAGASCAR! #
• 17:49 @Trinora It's like everything is infected BUT THERE. Grrr. #
• 18:05 Man, playing with a bacteria is so less fun then a virus. #
• 18:07 @wtftastic just got me. D: #
• 18:08 Fuck yeah, starting in the US. #
• 18:10 @Trinora How? #
• 18:14 @wtftastic how? #
• 18:16 Hmm. I have all of them. #
• 18:17 @Schonste <3. #
• 18:17 I think I'm making things too bad too quickly. Everything has it's borders shut. #
• 18:35 @wtftastic Yep. #
• 18:53 Can you pick where you start? #
• 19:02 I love that "first victim dies" thing. Hmm. Perhaps I should go get dinner. #
• 19:08 @wtftastic Oh hey, I found those Taco doritios at Walmart #
• 19:17 Man, fucking islands. There's no way I'm gonna grab Greenland. #
• 19:18 @wtftastic I happen to have some. Nom nom nom. #
• 19:27 @wtftastic Yeah, I'm building up some points to go all heart failure. And you get no sympathy; I am craving BBQ now. #
• 19:30 Oh. I haven't done dinner yet. Considering going to Blanch. #
• 19:32 Grr. Damn you, Greenland! Seriously, Islands are gonna be the way to go. #
• 20:03 This is like the most adorable thing ever: i36.tinypic.com/2whqlqf.jpg #
• 20:19 @cinefille I wondered why I could hear it. #
• 20:24 @Trinora No mandolin! #
• 23:56 @Trinora It's always Madagascar. Also? Lulz. #
• 00:05 @VoltjanStevens yeah, I was wondering about that... #
• 00:09 And bedtime. #

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• 01:25 Would like the birds to shut the fuck up. #
• 01:26 Hmm. Considering watching Legend. #
• 09:08 I am oddly sunburn, and considering going back to bed. Can I just sleep until September, please? #
• 10:02 Fuck, I hate it when you have days when you should sleep more, but instead your brain keeps telling you to do things. Been up for an hour.- #
• 10:02 still haven't done shit but fuck around on the web. #
• 10:48 ...I may need to leave campus to get some work done. This is bullshit, fuck the radio concert with it's base. #
• 12:25 @Trinora seems a mite early. #
• 12:27 I'm hungry, but hate sunlight and the music on the fucking green. Is week old pizza okay to eat if it's been in the fridge? #
• 12:35 @Trinora I don't know about making it at four. I'm waiting for my mom to bring me to the store, and while she was supposed to be here this #
• 12:36 @Trinora morning, it's 1:30 and she's nowhere to be found. #
• 12:36 Washing with exfolating wash on sunburn. Mmm. I forgot how fun this was. #
• 15:24 Please god make the music stop. Am considering going to work at the Haymarket or something. It's killing me. #
• 15:44 Soooo, we're all gonna die of the superflu like in The stand, apparently. Sorry "swine flu." #
• 15:50 Is very sad that Bea Arthur died. Dorothy was always my favorite. *sniffle* #
• 19:04 has finished reading V itself but is chillaxing before academic reading. #
• 23:09 Ugh, my kingdom for an AC. #
• 23:25 @VoltjanStevens A what? #
• 23:41 @wtftastic Damn you, Maddie, now I'm gonna be reading this all night instead of doing work. #
• 23:44 I hate when you see a spider and do the whole "I think it's crawling on me thing." I'm not scared of spiders, I don't care if they crawl on #
• 23:44 me, but fuck if I don't do that skin thing anyway. #

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• 08:35 Oh gods, the things Jeremy Iron's voice does to me. #
• 09:35 is being productive, doing laundry and then reading V. #
• 18:07 dotdotdot wtf? #
• 19:24 Is a little angry, alot sad and alot scared. She doesn't like this one bit. #
• 20:07 @VoltjanStevens It's always OVER 9000! #

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• 08:47 Ugh. Too much reading, even if it is really interesting. #
• 09:12 @sexygeologist is listening to your delicious 80sness. #
• 09:13 @sexygeologist Fucking Zoolander. #
• 09:42 is sitting in her classroom listening to girls watch Top Chef. Yeah. #
• 09:47 @sexygeologist is now sitting in her classroom and can't listen anymore. But still MOAR BOWIE! It's always the answer. #
• 12:06 oh god, does not want to be on call today. Does not. #
• 13:28 oh dies in class fuck early breaks and add drugs #

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• 06:41 I am realizing that I have slept more in the last five days then in the last like...month combined. And I still wanna sleep more. Well fuck. #
• 08:14 @PhelanLainW Congrads! #
• 09:19 has had quite enough of being home and would like to be back at school now, thanks. #
• 11:27 ugh. Why for headache again? One this week wasn't enough? #
• 12:46 @molliekatie What time? I may come over and do my reading. I have a catscan at 3, but am heading to campus after that. Dinner plans? #
• 12:47 @Trinora pics? #
• 15:20 Oh, why hello there room. I missed you. *pets her room* #
• 18:54 @wtftastic I think you're a bit of a chubby chaser, Maddie. #
• 20:08 @Schonste Buttonmaker coolness! #

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• 09:19 new medicine may have helped, may not have helped. Trying to eat. If this doesn't work, going to the ER. I can't do this anymore. #
• 09:26 is amused and saddened that they sent out moho news editing applications to the english list. #
• 10:19 has had enough of this motherfucking migraine in her motherfucking head and is going to the motherfucking hospital.... motherfucker. #
• 22:02 Hmm. This could be bad. I think the headache is coming back. #

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• 00:15 @Trinora pretty much, but we were never gonna get a perfect Watchmen movie. #
• 00:17 @Trinora comic sans is the downfall of western civilization. #
• 08:52 is either going to the doctor or the er or removing her brain 3 days of this shit is enough. #
• 10:02 @Trinora I've got a doctor's appointment at 3:30. #
• 18:28 is home from the doctor with new medicine, a mri appointment and strict orders to go to the hospital if this gets any worse. #
• 20:52 @molliekatie It'll be up on the web tomorrow. It always is. It's how I watch. #
• 20:56 I thought I was feeling better... and then I sat up. #
• 22:12 While I hate being home, I love having a cat on my lap. Yay Bubs. #

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• 09:06 @Trinora *hugs* #
• 12:34 went to brunch and didn't make it back to her room before goodbye to brunch. I called the doctor and am waiting for them to call back. Yeah #
• 14:43 is considering the er. someome shoot me please. also typing with eyes closed is fun. #
• 20:08 just woke up and feels a bit worse, but is considering going down to Blanch to see if food helps or hurt. But fuck is it bright there. #
• 22:56 @Trinora Lulz and soul hurting all at the same time: community.livejournal.com/watchdom/302396.html #
• 23:49 @Trinora Sorry. #
• 23:50 I think the girl next to me thinks I'm bulimic now. Ohhhhhhh goooooood. #
• 00:13 just wants to die at this point. Total number of pages read out of 200 for tomorrow? 10? Damage it did to my head? Priceless. #
• 00:13 @molliekatie I have vodka gummybears #

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is actually considering the er.

• 10:44 I may have jinxed myself on two fronts last night. This is not good. #
• 14:27 has a wicked headache and a hankering for Fresh side. Damn it. Plz be working medicine. #
• 14:47 @Trinora I'm gonna try. We'll see if my head can handle it. #
• 15:57 needs someone to bring her delicious fresh side tea rolls and apple cider soda. #
• 19:49 @wtftastic what happened? #
• 21:13 A whole day wasted and enough medicine to kill a small horse now. Come on head, plz chill out. Plz. #

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• 00:26 @Trinora We can kill him if you want. #
• 09:24 Hurm. So listening to the Hannibal soundtrack, and wanting to watch all of the LotR movies. (Steph don't start). This is probably a bad sign #
• 09:33 Oh my god. Oh god. LULZ. DYING: tinyurl.com/27wplt #
• 14:29 is concerned the professor didn't sign her form and will have a D and an F on her transcript. Plz be killing me now? #
• 14:36 @wtftastic I fucking hate the living. #
• 21:57 Has a headache, but is glad it was a productive if entirely too stressful day. #
• 22:20 @wtftastic I love you too, Madame President. <3. OMFG DOES THIS MAKE ME LEO INSTEAD OF KARL ROVE? YES PLEASE! #
• 23:01 @VoltjanStevens Hola. #

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• 07:56 doesn't understand what's going on with Wilson, her sleep schedule or the relationships in her life and she'd like all that to stop plz. #
• 08:58 oh for fuck's sake, woman you've been in the shower for 40 fucking minutes. Hurry it up. #
• 14:56 I'm upset and tired of feeling like I've done something wrong when I don't think I have. Oi. #
• 18:37 is about to watch Nosferatu and try and breathe. Yes, this breathing business. WHY CAN'T I STOP FREAKING OUT? #
• 18:41 nevermind, don't have the patience for a silent film today. #

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• 10:11 ...is just trying to be... #
• 12:57 I really dislike this bitch. I tried to express my concerns and she brushed me off with being all "let's focus on making it better." Annoyed #
• 13:02 Does anyone have a copy of the David-J song "This Vicious Cabaret?" It's based off the comic V for Vendetta. #
• 13:12 @molliekatie @wtftastic the problem is the system is as such that 99% of people will never met the level of richness they're waiting for #
• 13:27 @ihadtimetokill Lulz. Penis! There! Do you feel better now? #
• 13:33 @Chrysalid Murphy's law? #
• 13:38 @Chrysalid Kill him. #
• 13:40 @ihadtimetokill <3333333. I love you, man. #
• 13:40 Fuck, I should be doing reading on EU law, but instead wanna start rereading V for mah paper. That bitch. #
• 13:51 Nap/homework then film screening. Yeah, that works. #
• 13:54 @wtftastic Gods damn it, Maddie, you're not in class so you can destress, not add more stress! #
• 14:23 @molliekatie The Marriage of Maria Braun #
• 14:25 I love it when the sheets are cool. #
• 14:27 Man I miss Professors who give peptalks that you actually are smart. #
• 14:40 @Schonste Yeah, it's so frustrating, and it seems to be such a staple of Moho professors. Also, we should be friends on LJ. #
• 14:41 I wish fucking random businesses would stop following me. D: #
• 16:04 should be homeworking, napping or making dinner plans... instead I'm reading ontd. WTF, self? #
• 17:01 @heartvomit Word. I love her. #
• 17:17 @wtftastic dead link, dude #
• 21:14 had every intention of doing homework, but is now tired, grumpy and reading fanfic. Funny how that works out. #
• 23:27 and still I dream she'll come to me and that we will live the years together. But there are dreams that cannot be and there are storms...<3 #

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• 08:04 Ugh, internet fail and a fire drill make me feel like I've had too much sleep and not enough sleep at the same time. #
• 08:31 Damn you, House, just when I think I can just watch the old episodes, you go and give me this! Yes, oh fuck yes. #
• 08:59 It's probably a bad idea to have red bull and peanut butter eggs for breakfast but fuck it. #
• 09:07 @Chrysalid oh damn. Now I'm gonna have that in my head alllllllllllll day. #
• 18:16 ...there is loud drumming going on outside...wtf? #

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• 06:42 @krisbotha *Hugs* If you need anything, even if it's someone to yell at just let me know. #
• 08:53 @krisbotha Of course. <3. #
• 08:54 I...hate this class so much. Really. It makes me insane. #
• 09:46 @Trinora ouch! Are you drinking enough water and having enough potassium? I know that can make em worse. #
• 09:49 I think it's time for the things I'd rather do then write this paper game. I'd rather write this paper then stick a pineapple up my nose. #
• 09:57 let the stars in the sky remind us of man's compassion let us love til we die... #
• 09:59 OMFG Jane Yolen. I loved her as a kid. #
• 10:39 @krisbotha I don't think you have any reason for being sorry that you posted that. Clearly it's something important happening in your life. #
• 11:04 Ugh. So much headache. Must go to class though. #
• 15:20 Is quite terribly losing her shit. Heh. Oi. #
• 15:40 would really like some goldfish. #
• 18:37 @Trinora We miss you too. #
• 18:37 I'm feeling a bit better now. Still pissed as fuck, but less genocidal. #
• 18:49 @ihadtimetokill 8 for dinner, right? #
• 18:57 @wtftastic Not your fault, Maddie. I just hate my professor. So much. #

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• 09:46 is at the ER with her mom. This blows. I have been up since six and here since 8. Please shoot me in the face. #
• 10:14 @Trinora my mom has a kidney stone and my aunt has hep A so my mom was worried, despite me telling her she has no signs of it. Oi. #
• 18:50 is watching Pulp Fiction with Xtine and Laura. Does Marcellus Wallace look like a BITCH to you? #
• 19:17 @Trinora SAY WHAT AGAIN MOTHAFUCKA, SAY WHAT AGAIN. #
• 20:49 @Trinora Say what again motherfucka, say what again, I dare ya I double dare ya, motherfucka. #

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• 12:04 Paul Staiti made fun of me and yeah. It was amazing. I love that sweater-wearing man. #
• 13:48 god. This is me feeling my GPA falling down. God. #
• 15:53 God oh god oh god Adviser just told me to take my LSATs in June. OH GOD. Says it make things easier. OH GOD OH GOD. #
• 16:08 @Schonste With finals and turning 30 between now and then. #
• 16:09 @HappyRotter He says it'll give me a better idea where to apply to. God. SCARED. PANICS. #
• 16:24 @Schonste Oi. You've never seen me close to my birthday. It's pretty horrible. Funny I'm normally in crisis mode before now. Hurm. #

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• 07:03 Fuck you random guy in Georgia for calling me with a wrong number 4 times at 7 am. Fuuuuuuuuuuuccccccckkkkkkk yoooooooooouuuuuu #
• 07:11 also, apparently my computer doesn't wanna play DVDs anymore? *Whimper, whimper, cry* #
• 07:24 Oh Gina Torres, bringing the Hoyay to Alias. Damn you for not bringing her back after they canceled Firefly, JJ! #
• 08:47 Oh no. I just fucked myself right in the ass. Fuck. Oooohhhhh fuck. Yeah, lemme undeclare that double major right quick. #
• 09:00 is having a panic attack. #
• 09:32 @Trinora linking to the LJ, cause I can't do it in 140: tinyurl.com/cke8sn #
• 10:06 @Schonste I wish I could speak German. Right now I either need to like... take sign language at Hampshire which they offer once, or take a #
• 10:06 @Schonste summer class and fork over the 700 bucks myself. Oi. #
• 13:25 I think the twitter may be broken? #
• 14:01 Mmm. Nappy time. #
• 15:04 Ugh so much tired. #
• 20:23 @AnaLies <333333333 #
• 20:58 So. Question. Language. German which friends speak and I can get them to help, or Italian which I took before and failed? No monies for ASL. #
• 21:09 @AnaLies it's all about DW. #
• 23:34 Hmm. I think my airport is going. This... is not good. #

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Oh fuckohfuckohfuck. So, I have been operating on the assumption that I would just be able to take this test and like... NOT need to fucking take a language, being as I have had four attempts (not counting German) to try and learn a language and my brain just isn't processing them. I don't know why, but with the amount of fucking time I put in, it should have. Fuck.

So, I finally emailed Jon Body about doing that, and this is what I got in return:

Kim,
I'm sorry to hear you have struggled with foreign language learning. We actually don't
have a waiver for the language distribution. However is a student is diagnosed with a
learning disability which significantly interferes with her ability to learn a foreign
language, she can request a foreign language substitution under the American's with
Disabilties Act. This substitution allows the student to either take the language
courses with the ungraded option (pass/fail) and still count towards distribution; or the
student can take two culture courses in on cultural area. These culture courses cannot
count towards any other distribution or major or minor requirements.
Have you been diagnosed with a learning disability?
The first step in the process whether you have been diagnosed with an LD or not is to
take the Modern Language Aptitude Test through my office. The test cannot diagnose
anything, its only a screening tool but it does give us good information on how a student
processes language. If you would like to take the MLAT (it takes about an hour and a
half), please email my intern, Lauren Tornatore who is included in this email, times that
you are available on Monday and Tuesday afternoons.

John Body

Uh... yeah. So this is me, doubly fucked. Fuck. Fuckfuckfuck. I don't know what I'm gonna do. Oi. Of course this would have to come the day after declaring my major. Which I now need to fucking undeclare cause I was thinking I would be able to kill two birds with one stone. Oi, Moho finding new and interesting ways to fuck me over. God. What do I do? Fuck.

• 08:27 @ihadtimetokill dude, where are you watching last night's house? #
• 13:23 Yeah, being so productive today, but the library computers are giving me a headache. But applying for aid and shit again is done. #
• 15:08 is now double majoring. Yay. Also, DW squee! #
• 16:19 @Trinora Holy shit. Wow. #
• 21:23 is Vesmir-ing. And being amused. #

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• 07:48 is having large amounts of girly nerd squee! #
• 08:34 just broke the needed side of my glasses. I am so, so so fucked now. #
• 08:38 @ihadtimetokill welcome to my constant life. #
• 08:46 glasses broken and my insurance isn't going to cover it. Ugh. Fuck my life and packing tape. #
• 09:36 is considering contacts. Or a monocle. #
• 10:20 ugh, old awesome glasses are now fail. Fuck me, five minutes and it's already a headache. #
• 15:41 has a headache but is squeeing like a fangirl. #
• 21:20 met Paul Sorvino and he was adorable, singing, swearing win. And he said hi to us on his way in. #
• 21:33 @AnaLies The best Doctor/Master video any. Why so sexy, Master. *SQUEE* #
• 21:38 @amandapalmer Doctor Who just makes everything better. #

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• 10:07 Is tired. So. So. Tired of this. #
• 11:49 @ihadtimetokill Ouch. And oh no. #
• 11:50 I fucking hate it when books just start randomly fucking becoming something different. Rhetoric, media, OMFG THERE IS ONLY ONE TRUE RELIGION #
• 12:17 is going home and rethinking her life. #
• 12:45 is gonna go home and rethink my life. #
• 14:49 crackle.com/c/Mr._Deity/Mr_Deity_and_the_Meaning_Season_2_Ep_2/2071472#id=2161571&ml=o%3D12%26fpl%3D68726%26fx%3D #
• 15:20 Hmm. My tweets are disappearing. #
• 18:19 is less then optimistic about this, but fuck it and let's watch Labyrinth anyway. #
• 23:20 ugh, I'm worse then useless tonight. I had this stupid abstract papers for my rhetoric class. #

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• 01:20 Damn it. JEH is gonna play Freddie in the remake of Nightmare on Elm St. This poses a dilemma for me. Damn it. #
• 09:42 is a very very upset and angry panda. "What are you blind?" Why yes I am, thanks! #
• 09:51 fuck this, back to bed. #
• 11:18 ugh, what's wrong with me? I have a fridge full of Chinese food and wings and all I want is fucking goldfish. #
• 12:16 a-proclivity.livejournal.com/194391.html #
• 12:28 I love you: bit.ly/8Qsc #

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Last night for the first time in a long time, I dreamed of HCC. I wandered through familiar spaces, my steps unmeasured and sure. I smelt familiar spells, found myself feeling a part of whole, feeling wanted, respected, adored. I followed the hallways with no sense of fear, or regret or concern. It was just me and the way the light would warm the hallway heading down to G building, making the concrete have a warmness that didn't feel at all artificial. The smile is as soft as that light, all knowing and absurdity; there is no doubt at HCC for me. I know that if I keep walking, I find G-building just as it was, and I will find everyone whom I need there. I stand before the double doors dotted with pink paper, and even the color selection makes me happy; it is just another piece of HCC fluttering in the wind happy to see me.

And then I wake up here at Moho. I actually quite like my room at Moho, as messy and loud as it can be. I'm half-asleep, my eyes are barely open against the influx of light as I wander down the hallway to the bathroom. My steps are concise and counted. 14 steps into the bathroom stall. I cannot see anything, the light is too bright and my glasses are offering vision to the top of my Wilson. All of a sudden there is a voice, loud and angry around me. “I'm cleaning the bathroom! What are you blind?!” I stop, stunned. My chest tightens, and I can feel my heart falling into my stomach before it is thrust upwards by frantic pushing. Despite all the not-joking-enough comments I make about my blindness, I am almost always surprised when someone else I don't know remarks upon it.

I was embarrassed and upset by her careless comment. I didn't say anything, which is highly unusual for me; everyone who knows me knows why. Instead I blindly groped my way towards the other bathroom. The steps from my room to that bathroom have never been counted, and it was terrifying to me. I do not wanna live with this sort of emotion anymore, I do not want to have to count on how my fingers touch the wall, and the sensation of vague shapes within my vision. I do not want to almost knock over trashcans everywhere. I just want to go back to that time when everything didn't feel that hard and everything wasn't like a slice at me.

• 00:12 @Chrysalid not at fucking 1 am. I want to cut a bitch. #
• 08:26 loves how her needs are always subservient to everyone else's within her family. #
• 10:24 Oh my god, I just read the script that Alan Moore approved for Watchmen in the 80s and What.The.Fuck. Laurie has cancer... time travel #
• 10:25 And "THEN I'VE BEEN A VERY BAD BOY AND YOU'LL HAVE TO SPANK ME! CHRIST! I'M DOING WHAT I HAVE TO TO SAVE THE GODFORSAKEN HUMAN RACE." #
• 10:26 From Adrian to Dan at Karnak. I... yes. Drugs. Drugs are the only response. #
• 13:06 Hmm. To double major or not to double major. I only need five more classes. #
• 14:16 @Trinora I have to take 3 English seminars, and a politics seminar and a 200 level class. I also need to do MP stuff, which can be english #
• 16:05 Oh Renegades. #
• 16:07 @Trinora what time are we playing tomorrow? #
• 16:10 And we're talking about bidocs and male preg. Oh, the emperor. #
• 16:12 @Trinora that works for me, Laura and Xtine. #
• 16:12 And we're digressing once more. #
• 16:21 Annnnnd we're meeting Bale Organa. Fuck yeah. Also, shiny things distract small children. #
• 16:23 @molliekatie it's a pony-like thing in Star Wars. #
• 16:34 Wow, Jenny's game fails. Who is surprised by this? #
• 16:42 And now we are voting for random people. Yay. Also, who is Bale Organa fucking? #
• 16:44 @Trinora there's a one shot running tomorrow, but it's all full because she is a fucking bitch and didn't even offer spots to anyone else. #
• 16:46 Rickrolling Bale Organa, yessssssssssss. #
• 16:52 I'm on a boat take a good hard look at the motherfucking boat. #
• 16:54 @Schonste there's a wicked Renegades schsim over stupid things, and it's probably gonna be a clusterfuck next year. #
• 16:55 @Trinora I want too, but there's no way numbers wise. Like... it's so bad there's no way Maddie has a shot unless we bump numbers. #
• 17:14 @Schonste @Trinora Yeah, I don't know, we'll see what happens. All I know is Ashleigh is a fucking raging cunt who I constantly want to #
• 17:14 @Schonste @Trinora punch in the fucking mouth. And we're ordering sushi. #
• 17:30 @Schonste it's raining and no one wants to drive to Noho. So, it's Ichiban and Star Wars d20 #
• 17:38 Let's bailout Lex Luthor. #
• 18:02 Apparently the force is like a walkitalki. #
• 18:07 @molliekatie it's cause you're a glutton. #
• 18:11 I am gonna beat Maddie with a science book. #
• 20:21 @ihadtimetokill we are playing Star Wars d20, dude and using the force as a walkitalki. #
• 20:48 @Trinora Oh fail. #
• 20:59 is debating doing laundry. #
• 22:13 And we kissed, as though nothing could fall (nothing could fall) #

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• 06:01 I've been up for half an hour, and the only thing I have written on my paper is my name. This does not bode well for me. #
• 06:35 I've been up for an hour and now I have a heading and a title, but nothing else. Still not boding well. #
• 07:25 @pedestrian101 And everyone around you would call the kid Larry. #
• 07:42 wishes she had a fucking copy of Citizen Kane, or had started this earlier so she could fucking look at it. Damn it. No time. #
• 08:05 is it getting harder to pretend life goes on without you in the wake? #
• 08:46 @ihadtimetokill Oh god yes. #
• 08:59 Ugh, why do I keep doing this thing were it's all "*writes two lines, goes check facebook/lj/twitter*" Why? Oi! Half an hour more. #
• 09:17 fuckfuckfuckfuck #
• 12:45 Did her paper, and talked to her professor and somehow got talked into reconsidering double-majoring? #
• 12:55 Oh, it's totally a low planes day today. D: #
• 16:05 Really wants to get off campus for dinner. #
• 16:10 @ihadtimetokill Cause I'm a horrible person, but I don't want to do the Gracious and I don't wanna do like... Blanch again. #
• 16:13 @ihadtimetokill yeah, that's why I did salad today at lunch. #
• 16:18 @ihadtimetokill I'm supposed to go to the talk thing too. Hmm. God. Does not want sandwiches or Blanch pizza. #
• 16:22 @ihadtimetokill Hmm. Wanna do Johnny's after? We could have drinks. And wings. #
• 16:33 @ihadtimetokill woot, are you coming to the talk? #
• 17:03 @Trinora it is because you are epic and automatic win. #
• 00:03 What. the. fuck. is with the screaming? #

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• 08:15 Ugh ugh ugh. I feel like shit. #
• 08:56 When I treat ya bad it always makes ya wanna stay... #
• 09:44 @Schonste Weird, it's not down for me. #
• 12:32 has to go meet with reslife over the shit on Saturday. WTF? #
• 17:57 Should be working on her paper, but fuck it. #
• 22:39 Does not want to get up at 6:30 to go to the doctor. #

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• 08:26 @Chrysalid Yay V! I so can't wait to write on it for my rhetoric class. #
• 08:27 @Trinora Trina, I love you and your geekiness. Eddie will be fine as long as he's not thrown out of a window. Tossing is fine. #
• 08:28 I made it all semester without having a really serious cold and flu thing. Now I woke up freezing with a fever and a leaden head. FML #
• 09:47 @Trinora Wow, that's like the most Italian name ever. #
• 09:48 So mainlining this here day quill that I found in the back of my drawer. Does dayquil go bad? #
• 10:10 @Trinora I found like two old capsules in the back of my drawer from last year. I don't think it's gonna do any good. I think it's my ear. #
• 10:18 Oh yeah it's totally my ear. Fuck me. #
• 10:37 Balls. #
• 15:17 Is now taking this class ungraded, yay. But also... feels very very odd. #
• 15:50 God, why am I being so emo about doing something with people who think I am occasionally awesome? #
• 17:25 @Trinora She's a former terrorist/medical student. I have her done I'm just being...emo about putting her up. #
• 17:59 My room smells like cake. It's making me want cake. #
• 18:13 @RobertLPhillips Mmmm. FitzWilly's. #
• 21:42 @ihadtimetokill what happened? #

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• 09:35 So, I'm awake due to another ambulance at Safford. WTF? Why does this need to be every freaking Sunday? #
• 13:18 Hrm. WTF, aol mail being fail. Maybe it's time to do the fulltime gmail switch. Also? I want the oranges I left in Brien's car. #
• 14:52 Does not wanna be doing homework anymore. For real. #
• 15:31 I hate book reading now. Mmm. Advil ulcer time! #
• 16:30 Oh, thank gods they turned the heat on. I've been freezing my ass off. Also, only 30 more pages and then the paper writing can begin. #
• 20:38 Why am I so fracking tired? Really? #
• 21:29 Oh, first thunderstorm of the year. Fuck I love it. #
• 22:59 I don't know what the hell is going on with my web, but I sure don't like it #
• 23:50 Mmm, cruiseships to hell ftw. #

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• 08:09 @molliekatie I had the worst migraine of my life. 3 doses of maxalt and I almost called someone to bring me to the ER. #
• 08:09 @molliekatie Also? There was much yacking. #
• 08:52 Would quite seriously like to be shot in the face. #
• 10:19 @ihadtimetokill Repo helmets are cool! #
• 10:28 @ihadtimetokill Oi. <3. I'm so sad I missed it last night, but I was really wanting to die. #
• 11:36 I love oranges. That is all. Also, a bit worried about running this game today, because of the headache. #
• 11:37 @Trinora Oh no! I hope she's okay! #
• 11:45 Need moar oranges. And Advil. And probably caffeine. #
• 12:43 Is waiting for Brien. Come on Brien. #
• 12:44 Fuck, somewhere between Skinner and yacking my brains out I lost my $40 sunglasses. Oh Fuck me. #
• 19:57 Oh Star Wars prequels. Oi. #
• 20:49 Is a tired panda who is tired of this whole business. #
• 23:16 @Paul9485 Paul I <3 you! #
• 23:20 So yeah, pubsafe busted our nonexistent party. Woot. #

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• 08:35 Totally had the weirdest dream ever involving zombies, watchmen and 9/11. And her family. Oi. #
• 08:55 Totally going fucking back to bed. No zombie dreams plz. #
• 09:19 @Schonste When in doubt, always go with the leather sex outfit. #
• 09:46 @Trinora Trina, that review. Win. #
• 10:58 @Chrysalid Err, Niteowl getting down dance? #
• 11:04 @Chrysalid Oh yeah. That makes me lulz. And cry a bit. #
• 11:08 To write fic or not write fic? #
• 11:13 @Schonste Or I could watch me some nice Doctor Who. #
• 11:39 @Schonste #
• 11:40 @Schonste What if it was Doctor Who fic? (It's not. It's worse). #
• 11:46 If one more fucking stupid girl comes and asks to see my room, I am going to toss them through my room and Defenestrate them. Seriously #
• 12:10 @Schonste I did. And then I tried to be nice and be all "The room isn't open next year." And they're all "What why?" Whiiiiiney. #
• 12:43 Just had a nice long talk with Maggie and it was nice. #
• 12:55 Mmm. Spinach salad with olives and mushrooms. Yep, tastes of spring. #
• 13:02 @Trinora I would play anything for you, you know that. <3. You are my favorite GM. #
• 13:05 @Trinora I'm in if you want me. #
• 13:36 @ihadtimetokill Freezbi girls? #
• 13:37 @Trinora Yay! Now I need to come up with a character idea. Hmm. #
• 14:03 @ihadtimetokill Did you respond to my shit on the confessional? #
• 14:13 @Schonste Yep. #
• 14:26 @ihadtimetokill Mmm. House. #
• 14:35 @Schonste holyokeconfessional.com/ #
• 14:53 @Schonste Ohhh the poor little baby. #
• 15:34 Is at Renegades. Yeah. Also. Bowie. <3. #
• 15:54 @Trinora Maddie's gonna kill herself because we're shitty players and she's a bad DM and you're not here. #
• 16:59 @Trinora Now she's being all emo about herself in her underwear. #
• 18:44 Loves love loves her Star Wars game. So much love for our random shit. #

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• 05:40 Is up, showered and about to start doing this bitch. Seven pages in four hours is entirely doable. #
• 06:25 3! 3 pages ha ha ha! #
• 07:10 Can do this, no really. Shooting for three more pages in two hours. #
• 07:43 Fuck, my head is starting to kill me. Fuck fuck fuck #
• 07:54 Death via politics paper. Oi. Canyoukillmenow? Paper length requires 2.5 more pages, topic length requires 3 or four. Damn it. #
• 08:00 @ihadtimetokill House=motivation. And lulz. And love. #
• 08:01 @Chrysalid butbutbut the whole *point* of death's sweet release is not needing to finish this paper. #
• 08:03 @krisbotha Thanks babe, but I constantly do this to myself and still act surprised when I'm wanting to shoot myself when things are due soon #
• 08:03 @krisbotha Also? I miss you. <3. #
• 08:14 Lost her flipflop. D: #
• 08:49 Is never gonna be done. Fuck, it's just two pages and I'm sitting here going "..." #
• 09:14 @Chrysalid it's about juries in common law tradition v. layjudges in civil law ones. I'm stuck on the civil law piece #
• 09:15 Is going to need to skip film, damn it. I like that class. #
• 09:16 @molliekatie Yay blood! #
• 09:24 Is 265 on the list for working reunions. Oi. Fail. #
• 10:45 Oh gods, come on one paragraph! #
• 11:19 Done. Thank gods. Fucking finally. Oi. #
• 14:59 Oh yes, getting out of class early... Ahhhhh. #
• 17:57 God, WTF mhc? #
• 18:31 @Trinora Mmmm. #
• 20:01 @Schonste What color? #
• 20:31 Can't we give ourselves one more chance. Why can't we give love one more chance? #
• 22:16 Is exhausted. Oi. There goes my awesome free night. #

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• 09:44 can't write this paper and kinda wants to shoot herself in the face over it. Loving the Full Monty musical, though. Youtube. <3. #
• 10:21 Patrick Wilson really is the most adorable thing ever. #
• 10:52 I can't decide if I should nap for an hour or start mainlining the redbull already. Oi. Fuck this paper. #
• 11:18 Tired+dead brain+headache=nap>redbull. #
• 12:19 @Trinora You will do awesome. Why? Because you are awesome! #
• 12:20 Can't sleep, so is now having goldfish and redbull and advil. Plz be writing yourself, paper? #
• 12:32 @ihadtimetokillx Every one, huh? #
• 12:43 It's the wholesome snack that smiles back until you bite their heads off. #
• 12:54 @ihadtimetokillx Uh... yeah, I'd rather do my paper then that. #
• 12:56 @molliekatie tinyurl.com/cos39a #
• 13:04 @molliekatie Sooooo just did, but I'll facebook you it. #
• 13:05 I think I can, I think I can... I need more redbull. #
• 14:04 @Trinora You will BE good as well. Because you are awesome. Don't worry so much, dude. You're epic. #
• 14:05 Thank you, book gods for index pages that make life easier. Three books down, five and a fuckton of PDFs to go. #
• 14:22 OMFG I HATE HOW NOTHING IN MY LIFE CAN EVER BE ABOUT ME. NO IT ALWAYS NEEDS TO BE ABOUT HOW I'M EFFECTING MY FAMILY. SORRY I HAVE SHIT TO DO #
• 15:51 The best thing in the whole world is fucking having earphones on and singing at the top of your lungs. Yeah. #
• 15:54 I got a progress report in a class I emailed the professor and told him I was dropping. WTF? #
• 15:56 @Chrysalid But did you read them all 35 minutes ago? #
• 16:09 @Chrysalid <3. Damn it. Must not be all Watchmened up. Must be working on this paper. #
• 16:11 @Trinora I liked... parts of the movie. I thought it was as close to the novel as a movie could get, but parts of it pissed me off SO BAD! #
• 16:12 @Trinora and the more I see it, the less I like it. The casting was good, for like some of it PW=Dan, but yeah. I'm trying to reserve judge- #
• 16:13 @Trinora ment until after I've seen the director's cut. I love the DVD of Under the Hood, though. Also, RPing it. Oi. Geekness. #
• 16:14 @Trinora ...you're gonna hate me, but I liked Ozzy way more in the movie then the GN, and I think the spoiler alert makes more sense then #
• 16:14 @Trinora the vag-squid which I never liked in the GN. #
• 16:14 @Trinora Also? Twitter needs more characters. #
• 16:31 @Trinora I always thought he was evil and up to no good, even in my first go of the comic like 15 years ago. #
• 16:38 @Trinora well yeah, but: tinyurl.com/dnlhok sexy #
• 16:39 @Schonste In the first part like... during the comedian fight, it's all well he's not wearing a coat, or a cape or blue? Who else is there? #
• 16:40 @Trinora Bruce Wayne>>>>>>Comic Adrian. Movie Adrian >>>>>>>Bruce Wayne. #
• 16:47 @Trinora mmmm moonshine. #
• 16:56 @Trinora And you enjoyed his horror, didn't you? <3. God. Someday when the world goes to hell, that will be a valuable skill. #
• 17:02 @Schonste OH NO FUCK NO. Fucking douchebag! I can't believe he's gonna pull that! #
• 17:09 Needs to get off the interwebz and do some homework, but eh. Headache. #
• 17:39 Balls. Just balls. #
• 17:50 Gods, headache. #
• 19:46 So, I need this remix of Bowie/Queen's Under pressure. Does anyone have it? tinyurl.com/ymd8bd #
• 20:19 Oh music win. Now if only I could have paper win. #
• 20:24 If I had a TARDIS I would so go see Freddie Mercury's fierce self. #
• 21:04 oh gods cannot get this fucking done. damn it. #
• 21:31 it's absurd how accomplished I feel when I peel an orange and the peel comes off in one piece. #
• 22:57 @Trinora OMFG, that's so cute. #
• 23:03 Seven pages to go. Might as well be seven thousand. #
• 23:38 Can't read from books anymore. Fuck. #
• 23:53 Fuck this, I'm getting up at six to write this bitch. #

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